Thursday, January 24, 2008

The beauty of you




Do you wake at the dawn and spot the surpassing beauty of the sunrise?
Do you feel the wind brushing alongside your skin; the identical wind
that glazes the autumn leaves?
Do you see the beauty of the radiant cardinals that soar through
the slowly drifting clouds in the Heavenly skies?
And then sense those fluffy clouds grazing among Heaven's surface,
and the dream of landing there gives you a rushing high...
Do you feel the shock of lightning shooting through your body when
the clouds turn gloomy and gray.?
Slowly your body heats up and the thunders' pounding beats your lasting emotions away.
Do you smell the beauty in the air as the dripping rain little by little,
seeps down your veins.
Do you picture the sun flying high, sneaking out behind the curves of whiteness?
The shimmer it fires off leaving you blinded, and mind blown beyond imagination.
Do you believe in that same light that shines down on each flower petal,
and moves it to grow and stand on its own.
And the exquititness of the butterfly that rest upon those petals;
their majestic tint.
The way they move in their journey.
Learning and transforming.
Resistance. Perspective. Change.
Beautiful in the beginning and end.
Teaching us to become more than we are.
Do you see their colors blend with the breathtaking sunset falling down,
as the night unwinds.
The array of illumination of magical colors capturing your heart,
leaving you gasping for air.
Deep breaths.
Sighs.
As you reach out, and can almost hold the outermost star in the palm of your hand.
Do you see its beauty shooting out to you?
Waiting for your eyes to gaze upon its presence.
Do you know the loveliness of these Godly creations?
If you were able to capture and truly know,
you still would know nothing of the beauty your existence throws to me.
The beauty of your soul.
And each new moment; something more beautiful unfolds.
For this love,
no experience.
no measure.
no words.
could captivate how beautiful you are to me.
As the darkness rises and rest down upon me,
blackness of the deep clouds are here to stay.
I stand up, fall daown, find comfort just to lay,
my faith is drifting slowly
with the sun as it softly fades away.

I've reached rock bottom,
yet being pulled further down.
To this place i've known,
for such a long time now.
Still fills my ears with unfamiliar sounds.

At most I fear, it'll never disappear,
the harder i fight,it becomes more near.
Dreading each moment that the pain drifts in,
and it all finally comes to an end.
The pain moving so fast,
and overpowers me at last.

Picture of the World

This world is cold and crazy
spinning in circles around us
round and round.
All different people
turnin' it upside down.

Each an individual and with their
own kind of thoughts
with their very own opinion,
of how our battles should be fought.

All have their friends, all have their enemies,
those they love and those they tend to envy.
Some are poor with nothing to live for,
some have it all and won't ever fall.

All unique with various faces,
from around the world, coming from different places.
No matter who, you're blessed from above,
with the gift of God's unconditional love.

"Your Dream"











You commit your life to it,
with the rest of the world against you
Afraid to go forward, running from it;
just out of reach it seems,
its your dream.

A country music star,
sellin' out more than a kareoke bar.
In the hospital, the only doctor in sight,
being a part of the miracle of life.

Starts out as just a fantasy,
yet its all you've ever wanted to be.
Just out of touch it seems,
its your lovely dream.

In the classroom, leaving an impact on all the children,
teaching them to follow their dreams, to keep believin'
on the baseball diamond, makin unstoppable plays,
perfomin like a champion well on their way.

No matter what you do,
follow it all the way through.
Just out of vision it may seem,
believe in your dream.

Just out of reach it seems,
achieve your dream.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Life has to end...Love doesn't!

"Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You dance with it." Life has to end...love doesnt"

It feels like the life has been sucked out of you when you lose someone you love. That explains the feelings that last moment I saw my uncle. As I whisper
'i love you and i'll see you in my dreams', the pain drives deeper into my heart, like a nail driving into a surface so hard, piercing right through it.
The love is still blooming. That tiny grin poking from his face. I felt something ill never experience again, irreplaceable. He smiled as he always did, it never left his face and thats the impression that will forever stand in my mind and everytime i see him in my dreams...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

that kind of father to me

i pick my head up and glance at that huge smile beaming from the framed picture on my desk.
the one i awake to every morning.
i miss him so much more today.
He was that kind of father to me. He was 'there'.
Supportive. determined to put a smile on my face.
He never let a moment go by, without telling me that he wished he could do more to make it better for me.

What he didnt know; was that it couldnt get any better.
to be together. to have him, a dad figure.
to prove to me that i was worth it.

Thats all i needed day after day.
i can feel that now as he continues looking down and "just being there."

A million words running through my head, still speechless of how much
his words
his heart;
made me.